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The devils box. [05 Aug 2006|10:11am]
[ mood | content ]

Life in a box,
The box is not that big.
Life in a box,
with out someone to kiss.
Life in a box,
with out friends to hold you.
Life in a box,
where everyone scolds you.
Life in a box,
where you always get sick.
Life in a box,
where you want to dig.

Life outside the box,
where Jesus' love and grace.
Life outside the box,
where the weather is never cloudy or grey.
Life outside the box,
where your eyes are opened by the truth.
Life outside the box,
IS where I'll wait for you.

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Back [14 Jul 2006|10:29pm]
[ mood | busy ]

A Slow heart beat. The cold body come back to life.

*lol* I never new how much I ad on this thing. I was looking at it and this LJ was from when I was 15 wow 3years. I never knew.

Well It's here and I'll use it every once and awhile, but this is mostly for people that are new to my life and want to know me and/or storys and other things.

I know it's weard, but I am weard, so na!

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Going by-bye [22 Jan 2005|07:08pm]
Well everyone say good bye to this lovly young lady. You will never hear from her again. If you what to hear from her you must give me $100000 to see or hear from again.... MUAHAHAHAH

the kidnapper

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Stand Tears [16 Jan 2005|06:51pm]
[ mood | blah ]

Running up stair that never end. A girl crys trying to find her way out. Her arm is bleeding from falling down. this is back the ege of the steps are reazger sharp.
Suddenly she stops. - I must get out of here. I can't stand this preson any longer.- she said to herself. - My freedom lies at the end of these stairs.-
She stairs running again with more speed, but it feels to her that she not going anywhere. ( like you are running up an escuvator going down and you are trying to go up.)
she runs out of breath. -why, why can't i get up there. I can't see the end. this is hopeless- she thinks.
"Ankia why are you running from me?" a voice said at the top of the stains.
" NO, No leave me alone." anika said with tears coming down.
" You are alone." the voice said right behind her, " you don't know how alone you are. You are the last of your kind and you hate your family. Who do you have left to run too? Who do you have left?"
Ankia falls on her kneas strapping them at the same time. Crying, something doned on her. she had on person left in the world someone that loved her enoph to not care if she was last known person to have the blood of the kings. " I HAVE ONE PRESON LEFT!" she said she got up. But after she tried to run agian to arms grabed her and started to drag her down. " NO!" she sreemed , but she couldn't get away from him. " LET ME GO!!WHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!" she sreamed. everything was going black for her, because the lack of blood she had."no" she wishpered before she pasted out.

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tears of pain [05 Jan 2005|10:03am]
[ mood | worried,sad,beaten,depressed ]

A girl sits there in her room in pain and in deep depression.

"My LORD-GOD ARE YOU THERE? IT'S ME!"she cries out. " I had a wonderful time at encampment, but once i got home i found out thatone of my good friends had gottin' in to a really bad car reck. Did you see her she was thrown 20 yards from her car. that was friday evenin' my Lord. i didn't know."
She cries in to her hands again. " then my lord i find out that my gradmother isn't doing well eather. I don't know what to do. I have do everything you have asked. I'm sorry for my sins and i'm Sorry! But please my Lord don't take Ashley... please heal her. She just has a baby. she needs to take care of him. Oh my lord is he lovly AND SO CUTE. he looks just like he father."
She smiles up at the lord. and thanks him for that new life. "but my lord. Why?? why did you let satin make that crash? I don't know what they were doing but my lord.. why? I know that i'm not allowed to question you my Lord, but i want to know what the secret is. Is it my punishment or is it Ashleys..... or was it something that we cant handle. i just want to know my Lord."
Tears fill her eyes again. " i saw her yesterday. she didn't look that well. i knew what every computer was in there for because my mother works there. she looks stable, but it's had to tell if she is going to make it. that is why i'm praying my LOrd please, please help her thorw this ... she needs you. Amen."

she sits there and just sobs for the longest time.

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PLEASE PRAY! [26 Dec 2004|06:09pm]
[ mood | scared and hopeful. ]

I willl be gone for a week for encampment. please pray that i can get throw it and not go throw another hospitl trip! i want to become an officer and go up in rank.. but i can't do that with out this encampment.

PLEASe Pray for my mopther. I'm going to pick her up here soon and she is going to be tired. I have to drive to tallahasse in afew... please pray that we get there safely.

PLEASE PRAY FOR MY MOTHER.. she will be driving home tomorrow after she drops me off.

this is going to be my last entery for a while.. but i know that i count on ya'll.


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died [23 Dec 2004|07:29pm]
[ mood | depressed ]

My dog died today and i have nothign more to say.


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Hehehehe!^.^ I stold again. [20 Dec 2004|10:31pm]
[ mood | sleepy ]

Have you ever...(put an X next to the things that apply to you)
(x) been drunk.
(X smoked pot.
() rode in a taxi.
(X been in a fist fight.
( ) had a threesome - kissing or otherwise
( )snuck out of your parent's house.
( ) been arrested
(x) made out with a stranger.(potter)
( ) celebrated new years in times square.
( ) went on a blind date.
(x) lied to a friend.
(x)had a crush on a teacher
() celebrated mardi-gras in new orleans.
( ) been to europe

a p p e a r a n c e
Height: 5'3".5
Hair color: brown
Skin color: white
Eye color: brown green
Piercings: two on each ear
Tattoos: not yet

r i g h t n o w
What color are the pants that you are wearing? blue
What song are you listening to right now? getting away with murder
whats the taste on your mouth?
What's the weather like now? cold!!
How are you? tired
Get motion sickness? in the car when i'm reading
Had a bad habit? yea
Like to drive? YES!

F a v o r i t e...
TV shows: Whose Line is it Anyway?
Anime:Inu-yasha, Cowboy bebop(IM me if you want more.)
Book: Bible, to many of them.
Manga: Revolutionary Girl Utena,Cardcaptor Sakura, Juvenile Orion, rurouni kenshin,trigun, trigun maximim, cowboy bebop,shalin sisters, fruits basket,sailor moon, and more in Shonen jump.
Non-alcoholic: virgin strawberry daiquiri
Alcoholic: heheheh... rum..vodka, smernoff, and more
Thing to do on the weekend: go to the movies and to the mall with my friends.
Movie:Pirates of the caribbean and more
h a v e y o u...
Broken the law: yea
Ran away from home: nope
Ever gone skinny dipping:yes
Ever tipped over a porta potty: yes
Used your parents'credit card before:yes
Fallen asleep in shower/bath: yes
Been in a school play: yea

l o v e
Girlfriend/Boyfriend: not yet
If so, how long have you been together:
Children: none
Current crush: ..................
Had a hard time getting over someone? yes
Been hurt: yea
Your greatest regret: keying that persons CAR! heheheh!
Do you have a job: yes i clean a church
Your cd player has in it right now: hmm.. matchbox20
If you were a crayon what color would you be?: clear!
w h e n / w h a t w a s t h e l a s t
Time you cried: hmmm... two to three weeks now.
Time you got a real christmas card: monday ( which is today)
Time you got e-mail: Today
Thing you purchased: ???
Movie you saw in the theater:the incerdibals
y o u r t h o u g h t s o n
Abortion: I think that it is killing a life that is not born yet... that is crule and inhumane.
Spice girls: ..... i liked them when i was younger but when i look now.. OH MY!
Dreams: are things that God give you to help you.. something that you need to fight( reworded is that somethings making you upset and you need to make that stop.)and a link with God.


1. a cross
2. my sweet 16 right
3. the necless that ty gave me.
4. a hair bow
5. pants


1. the screen
2. mouse
3. CAT ( that is in my way of the sreen)
4. manga
5. the lamp


1. potter
2.um..... dont remember i't been that long!

1. this thing
2. looking at my cat clean her self in front of the computer screen
3. tying to spell.
4 thinking.
5.don't know


5. water

1. when to ocala
2. lisen to music
3. talked to kieko
4 talked kayla
5. read

1. me typing
2. the cat clening herself
3. the fan
4. my brain
5. the humming of the computer


1. black
2. white
3. blue
4. brown
5. yellow


1. i need sleep
2. is inuyasha on to night.
3. i could be watching hannibal for the ninth time.
4. i don't want to go to encampment. ( oh well)
%. my throte hurts

3 people that rock your socks

1. GOD
2. keiko
3. Sam


2. Jesus
4. lenardo da venche
5. orlando bloom ( so i can kill him HA!)


1. my blueness
2. my bed
3. my t.v.
4. my wall scroles
5. my closet.
6. My stereo
7. my c.d's
8. my art work
9. my manga
10. my ddr max 2

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wee. [19 Dec 2004|09:02pm]
[ mood | happy and tired ]

I had a wounderful time a the cutata, and it's OVER! YEA! But now my voice is all like darthvater. heheheh. but i had a wounderful time at the resption and on saturday at keiko's party. I was wonderful to see everone again and it would be wounderful to do that again.

I know it's short today but i toke a quiz from my "uncle" heheheh. evil me.


You Are a Dreaming Soul

Your vivid emotions and imagination takes you awy from this world
So much so that you tend to live in your head most of the time
You have great dreams and ambitions that could be the envy of all...
But for you, following through with your dreams is a bit difficult

You are charming, endearing, and people tend to love you.
Forgiving and tolerant, you see the world through rose colored glasses.
Underneath it all, you have a ton of passion that you hide from others.
Always hopeful, you tend to expect positive outcomes in your life.

Souls you are most compatible with: Newborn Soul, Prophet Soul, and Traveler Soul

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Choir Practice. [16 Dec 2004|09:35pm]
[ mood | busy ]

Oh My GOSH! I'm So up set with Max at this momnet.For one that she is going out, well more then going out, she's marring this creep that she barly knows! She first met ( this is what i heard) him at McD. She then got his AOL sreenname and talked to him for * counts in head* only 8 hours and "fell in love" . SHe then ye'll at her father, calles him to pick her up and she was out of that house less then you can say timbucto. GRR. she don't know when to stop. less then 6 months they'er ingage. He is a creep. Ah.
^ but that is my thoughts. I know they are not important so that is all i'm going to put down.

i have to practice this reading i have to do for sunday. SUNDAY IS THE CUNTATA! YEA! My mother and are going to sing together, we are going to have a bass player. It's going to bee cool. On the song that my mother and i are singing, the Supranos CANT HIT the high part and it makes me CRENG! oh well, we have saturday practice and that takes for ever. We get Chocolate in the end( i know this because he ( Perry) does this every year.) Perry is so cool. I have been doing this now for *thinking* more than three years now. WOW. Yea. I didn't know it was that long ago now.

i wished Jennie was there at Choir thow. I like see her there and talking to her. It's just funner when she is there. But i will see her Saturday all day. She is coming over with crash to clean my room and then we are going to pick up her boyfriend an going over to her house!

well i have to go.

I'm typing a lot lately. oh well.


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Today and for a long time... ( i guess ) [16 Dec 2004|05:48pm]
[ mood | mischievous & not fealing good ]

Well I feal so sorry for this guy at my Math Class. He sit in the back and trys to lisen to the teacher, but he gets these notes from this Girl that likes him. Unforcantly he don't like her and he can't get rid of her. I know that he had a Girl friend and I gave him evice to tell her that you have a girl friend and that you don't like her that way. WELL she didn't let that go in to her brain. So today he told her again that he didn't like her that way and that he has a girlfriend. She was heart broken. After that was of with i talking to him ( well wrote on him note book), in the middle of class I might add, and we were have a good laphs. That Girl ( Protection of names) thought that we ( him and I ) were flirting. Don't get me wrong I like him, BUT NOT THAT WAY PEOPLE. I like him as a friend. Even my other friend said that we were not flirting. She also said that she has some solcing isuss. I agree with her. I don't think that that girl likes my anymore and i really don't care!

Other then that i think i had a pertty good-day. I only got to subjects done in class but hey i can get that fixed in a giffy. i had a headack again ( i have been having them off and on for the past 2 months now) but it might have been the facted that i stayed up untill 12:07 ( i think) last night.

The reson why i was up all night was that i was doing math and i masivly behind in it. I'm on 29 and i should be on 40 now. Oppesy. oh well I get that fix this holiday.I'm not that bad thow. Some people are still on lesson 2 and they should be of 40. Hahahah. I laph at that.

I have started drawling again, well more that i really do. i have been doing my comic. If you know what I'm doing * hint hint Jennie and bradley* please keep that a to yourself. thank you. I know that it will be better then the ones that i have been trying to do. One that i have been getting better in my writting and two the story plot is better then the others. The only thing is that i hope that i can get it right this time. i have my ruff ( for all those who love my spelling of ruff) draft in my art book and i will have it done, well some time in the next life time. I don't know if it will ever get done, consitering my work is pilling high over my head. But i will do my best about getting it done.

Monday i get to go to Ocala to see my grandmother. I havn't seen her in awhile and i want to see her before she goes. She can go anytime now because of her brain problem. ( if you don't know what i'm talking about you can IM me)

Also an update for my other grandmother. She went home but she got sick. she doesn't want to go to the Nursing Home because she saw this one person straped in to his/her chair. I don't blame her thow, but we ( my mother, father, and I ) can't take care of her. We have enoph time with my school work, my mothers work and my fathers work. But i'll pray for her health ( also my other grandmother's) and their ( look at the other one of these things) well-being.

Well that is all i have for you today. Sorry for my spelling, i didn't fast and i didn't want to stop a fix it because i didn't want to loss my train of thought.


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scabs [11 Dec 2004|07:09pm]
[ mood | crushed ]

things shouldn't be picked on... i did my crying and i will not stand for it anymore. I just got done seeing him die in my head and i will not stand it anymore... but i will not see their faces AGAIN! ... these scabs are bleeding and they hurt and i will not stand it any more... GOOD BYE!


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Oh my! [04 Dec 2004|01:49pm]
[ mood | chipper ]

S is for Stylish
A is for Alert
R is for Rich
A is for Athletic
H is for Helpful
A is for Articulate
N is for Nice
N is for Natural
A is for Adventurous
P is for Powerful
A is for Ambitious
R is for Relaxed
K is for Kind
E is for Extreme
R is for Romantic

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OK the same as aways [30 Nov 2004|10:43am]
[ mood | curious ]


Your Beauty lies
in Mystery. Captivating, mysterious and alone. You
are the girl in the little
black number that no one seems to know, the eternal
mystery girl. You make it a
point to never let anyone know more about you than
you want them to and do a
very good job of it. You're there one minute and
gone the next leaving them in
wonder of who you really are. A mature and normally
calm individual, quiet and
enjoy spending many hours of the day on your own,
most likely preferring night
to day . You love the dark and some may find you a
bit strange. You seem to be
rather distant and cold making hard for people to
get close to you, though you
probably like the distance they usually keep. You
probably wear make-up, but
concentrate more around your eyes than anything.
You know the effect you have
and enjoy keeping people in wonder.

Some Things
That Represent You:

Dark, Water Animal: Panther Color:
Black, Maroon, Dark
Tones Song: In The Shadows by The Rasmus
Sly Smile

Black Diamond Mythological Creature: Demon,
Vampire Planet: Venus
Hair Color: Black Eye Color:

"In the shadows for all time."

Where Does Your Beauty Lie? ..::Original Pictures Are Back! Detailed Results::..
brought to you by Quizilla

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Wow [26 Nov 2004|09:05pm]
Your element is Rain: Sad, lonely, distant and
unique. You are quite distant from emotion and
people, but you have been made this way by one
thing or another. Your are truly unique yet
fail to see it, and are quite creative be it in
art, music, writing, etc.. You used to let
people in now you don't even bother to try
having been hurt so many times in the past.
Your attitude is that you don't need anyone but
yourself, people are just trouble waiting to
happen. But you really do want to trust someone
no matter if you see it or not, deep down your
waiting for someone to come and set you free.
This kind of depression can turn dangerous,
don't let them get to you. Not everyone in the
world will hurt you, humans are humans and are
not perfect. So most likely sooner or later
you'll meet someone who feels like you do and
perhaps your shell will eventually disappear.

.:-|What is your true element?|-:. -With Anime Pictures and detailed answers-
brought to you by Quizilla

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OK [26 Nov 2004|08:28pm]

If you were in an anime what kind of girl would you be?(anime pics and MANY results)
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Here's Johnny [26 Nov 2004|08:14pm]
[ mood | crappy ]

Well on this quiz i liked too many movies of his... I had to narrow it down two. That would be POTC and Sleep Hollow. and the Chose is!

You are Captain Jack Sparrow! You probably are a
fun person to be with. You might need to stop
drinking all that rum though!

What Johnny Depp character are you?
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How can i not drink RUM! heheheh! Yo ho Yo Ho a Prites life for me!

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Hehehehe!^.^ [25 Nov 2004|07:38pm]
1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. How have I affected you?
5. What do you think of me?
6. What's the fondest memory you have of me?
7. How long do you think we will be friends?
8. Do you love me?
9. Do you have a crush on me?
10. Would you kiss me?
11. Would you hug me?
12. Physically, what stands out?
13. Emotionally, what stands out?
14. Do you wish I was cooler?
15. On a scale of 1-10, how hot am I?
16. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
17. Am I loveable?
18. How long have you known me?
19. Describe me in one word.
20. What was your first impression?
21. Do you still think that way about me now?
22. What do you think my weakness is?
23. Do you think I'll get married?
24. What makes me happy?
25. What makes me sad?
26. What reminds you of me?
27. If you could give me anything what would it be?
28. How well do you know me?
29. When's the last time you saw me?
30. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
31. Do you think I could kill someone?
32. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?
33. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
34. Are you going to put this on your LiveJournal and see what I say about you?

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God [25 Nov 2004|04:58pm]
[ mood | cold ]

God i'm in pain again. there is to much to do and to little time. I live for you God. I live of my friends. I live for my family.

i want to die. to live with you. the pain down here is so upberibla at time. that is when i want to die the most, but i know that you are there for me.

God help me!!!!!!!

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Kakay did it again ( it's one of her "i was in the shower" thing again) [14 Nov 2004|10:40pm]
Life is but a dance.

You are ruff in the beginning, but then you get good at it.
Once you think that you can do this, God puts another step in it. That is one of the best things about dancing, well God's dance moves. We don't know how to dance it, so we let God show us and lead us.

Life is but a dance.

I hope you don't stumble, but God is there to help keep you steady. That is one of the best things on Earth. We are not alone.
Life is but a dance.

I thank you God for making the dance.

I hope you dance.


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